Dec.1-Dec.10

12.1.08.7.50
Well, today was a fucking twist. Haha. Me and mom thought that someone stole the car whe really fucking stupidass Joan took it and shit. WEIRD. I dont wanna talk about it. But yeah. We went to Compton to see my bus route adn shitt. Im fucking scared to fucking death. Like i dont wanna ride the bus, especially that i dont know the way. And im not familiar with thee area. I gotta go from Gardena to fucking NSLB. Thats a longass way. But yeah. I dont know. I'll see hwo that goes tommarrow. So, homeschooling, Its been really good so far (: Easy, and its good for me. Cause i really read everything, and i learn alot. Even though i get looked down for doing it, IDGAF. Hah, imma proe those cunts wrong. I dont give what your opinion is on it. Cause im getting through it my own way. This is my life, and im living it. Not the best way i could, but im trying to get through for now. Taking my shit from day to day before. Now its from second to second. Life aint something to take advantage of, especially when i get a 2nd chance. GET ME? :D

12.2.08.9.08AM
Kaysss. well i just got ready, im so scareddd dammit. What if i get lostttt?! And mom told me not to look nice, but wtf. I cant help it. LMAO. And plusss some hot skaterr dude goess thereee, SO HAYYYY :D Hahhaha. But yeahhhh. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. CPT's scary. LOL. Frealsss, NO LIE.
8.11PM
YikesAlyssason (6:04:44 PM): I went on the bus to go to OFL righ. And like i have to go to Compton for that. And when i got off the bus, i swear i was scared out of my mind. Their were like bums everywhere. And like i was soo like OMG. WHAT DO I DO. And ugh, my mom got on my nerves cause she gave me the wrong bus number and shit. and like luckily like the metro was right there so i took it to longbeach, and yeah. my moms gonna take me out of OFL. and imma get into one close to here, and in like a nice neighborhood. LOL.
YikesAlyssason (6:04:54 PM): The goood/bad part was.
brendatreehugger (6:05:12 PM): uh huh
YikesAlyssason (6:05:12 PM): I went to fcms. and like met up with penny. and like i saw everyonee (:
YikesAlyssason (6:05:18 PM): BUT.
brendatreehugger (6:05:18 PM): except me.
brendatreehugger (6:05:19 PM): :/
YikesAlyssason (6:05:20 PM): Lol.
YikesAlyssason (6:05:22 PM): Yeah.
YikesAlyssason (6:05:25 PM): BUT.
YikesAlyssason (6:05:47 PM): Like it was really weird with cody cause you know, i was mad at him. and like he was being awkward and shit.
brendatreehugger (6:05:56 PM): uh huh.
YikesAlyssason (6:05:58 PM): So like i was like "Dont say hi then."
YikesAlyssason (6:06:02 PM): And like i walk away.
YikesAlyssason (6:06:15 PM): Then like later cody was acting all isolated and sad and shit.
YikesAlyssason (6:06:21 PM): So i was like "Hi coddyyy."
YikesAlyssason (6:06:28 PM): And that bitch flicks me off.
YikesAlyssason (6:06:33 PM): HE FLICKS ME OFF.
brendatreehugger (6:06:35 PM): :O
brendatreehugger (6:06:37 PM): HELL NO.
YikesAlyssason (6:06:48 PM): I was like OHWTF. And i flick him off double time. LOL.
brendatreehugger (6:07:42 PM): uh huh/
YikesAlyssason (6:07:57 PM): And then this girl i know passed and i see she had candy, then i turn and shes giving him candy, and i was like can i have one! and shes liek i gave it to him. and like i dont even look at him and im like can i have oneee? and like hes giving me one, and hes like i missed you.
YikesAlyssason (6:07:58 PM): O.O
YikesAlyssason (6:08:05 PM): I was like YOU FLICKED ME OFF.
YikesAlyssason (6:08:11 PM): Oh btw.
YikesAlyssason (6:08:13 PM): I forgot.
brendatreehugger (6:08:22 PM): HAHAHAHHHAHAA.
YikesAlyssason (6:08:31 PM): He tried to hug me earlier but i like pushed him away.
YikesAlyssason (6:08:37 PM): and like yeah.
YikesAlyssason (6:08:44 PM): so hes like cause you didnt hug me!
brendatreehugger (6:08:50 PM): oohh.
YikesAlyssason (6:08:53 PM): And i was like YOU FLICKED ME OFF.
YikesAlyssason (6:08:58 PM): And hes like but i love you.
brendatreehugger (6:09:02 PM): LOLOLOL.
YikesAlyssason (6:09:12 PM): And i was like you if you love someone you dont flick them off.
YikesAlyssason (6:09:21 PM): And like hes like i love you give me a hug.
YikesAlyssason (6:09:27 PM): And i was like UGH.
brendatreehugger (6:09:27 PM): ahahhahaa.
brendatreehugger (6:09:31 PM): awwwhhh(:
YikesAlyssason (6:09:34 PM): And i give him a hug.
YikesAlyssason (6:09:43 PM): And im like can i have another one.
YikesAlyssason (6:09:48 PM): The candy.
YikesAlyssason (6:09:48 PM): LOL.
YikesAlyssason (6:09:55 PM): and like hes like flick me off first.
YikesAlyssason (6:10:00 PM): And im like WTF? O.O
brendatreehugger (6:10:04 PM): LO.
YikesAlyssason (6:10:30 PM): And hes like you said if you love someone you dont flick them off. well i love you and i flicked you off. so flick me off.
YikesAlyssason (6:10:33 PM): and im like no.
brendatreehugger (6:10:40 PM): uh huh/
YikesAlyssason (6:10:41 PM): hes like yelling flick me off!
YikesAlyssason (6:10:50 PM): and im like *middle finger* fuck you!
brendatreehugger (6:10:54 PM): LOL.
brendatreehugger (6:10:55 PM): :]]
YikesAlyssason (6:11:02 PM): and he gives me one, and he says you love me!
YikesAlyssason (6:11:12 PM): Hahah, and then i was like pennys probably mad now.
YikesAlyssason (6:11:12 PM): LOL.
brendatreehugger (6:11:17 PM): LOLOLOL.
YikesAlyssason (6:11:21 PM): And hes like yeap, probably is.
YikesAlyssason (6:11:22 PM): LMAO.
brendatreehugger (6:11:28 PM): ahaha.
brendatreehugger (6:11:32 PM): awwwhh(:
YikesAlyssason (6:11:40 PM): Hahah, hes such a doushe.
YikesAlyssason (6:11:41 PM): LOL.
brendatreehugger (6:11:41 PM): Sounds great that you guys made up.
brendatreehugger (6:11:44 PM): LOL.,
YikesAlyssason (6:11:58 PM): Hahhaha, oh and asia so like was scared of me (:
YikesAlyssason (6:11:59 PM): LOL.
YikesAlyssason (6:12:04 PM): DId i tell you what she did?
YikesAlyssason (6:12:08 PM): I did right?
brendatreehugger (6:12:09 PM): nnaaap.
YikesAlyssason (6:12:11 PM): O.O
YikesAlyssason (6:12:14 PM): :O
brendatreehugger (6:12:19 PM): wha?
YikesAlyssason (6:13:05 PM): Well she told alex like 2 days before thanksgiving, shit about me and kelss fighitng, and said penny doesnt like kelss cause i dont like her. and i was like, WTF. Shes still talking about that shit?!
YikesAlyssason (6:13:10 PM): And yeah.
YikesAlyssason (6:13:13 PM): (:
brendatreehugger (6:13:19 PM): wth?
brendatreehugger (6:13:23 PM): gossiping much?
YikesAlyssason (6:13:31 PM): I know right.
YikesAlyssason (6:13:33 PM): Gosh.
YikesAlyssason (6:13:37 PM): Man. people.
brendatreehugger (6:13:49 PM): but did you talk to her?
YikesAlyssason (6:14:21 PM): No, she was like isolating herself, and like acting like she wanted to leave. and i didnt want to start nothing when i was happy to see everyone (:


Other than that. I was really happy to seee penny and shit (: Today was a mission. IT REALLY WAS.


12.3.083.16PM
HOLA ;D Hahaha, welllll. Hmmm, i didnt do shit today. LMFAO. Except wash my doggie scrappy. And im worrying :/ Cause i didnt go to my first appoinment for homeschooling, so that means i was kickedout. So yeah. I have to find a new homeschooling centerrr, and i want one neearby. But its hard :/ Like seriously, cause i know damn sure that im never gonna step foot into GardenaHigh. But like im so fucking behind :/ Like seriously. Probably a whole semester behind. So that means i gotta work 3 times harder, and do wayy moreee. and i gottta do some extraa activitiess so that likeee it kinna helpsss blockkk that i fuckinggg did nothing for about one fucking semester. So yeahhh. I just found out that theress 76 on my tv. LMFAO. Im retarded. I thought that NVM. Lol. Im just retarded. LOL. And sooo yeahhh. Chanthasss thiss weeekend :D WHOOHOOO. Im actually like used to not having Chantha at my schoool, or like not seeing her everyday. Lol. But i seee herrr more thannn most peopleeee soo HAYYY NOW :D Lmfao. I missss herr alot though! LOL. Like after one day i'll be like man, i miss chantha :/ LOL. But ishh all good yall ! Hahaha, so like yeahhh. I been hearing aloit lately that im funny (: LOL. Fucking flatterring. WHOOO. Hahha. OMG. Ariels complaining for me to make his fatass some fried chicken. PEACE AND LOVE BITCHES :D
7.31PM
Well well. I just wanted to blog, cause im bored (: Hahaha, well. Hmm. Imma just talk about this one guy. Cause dammit. I feel like venting (: LMAO. We'll call him HumpingBuddy. LMAO. HB for short (: Haha, i established that with him a long time ago. I wonder if he rememebers. LMAO. Hah, he has other nicknames we eastblished, but then it would be WAYYY too obvious. LOL. Anywaysss, yeah. This boy. How much he put me though. I;ve never gone through so much, with one guy in my entire life. Hes also the boy that taught me thee most soo farrrrr . Like what not to do, and what exactly to say and act. I just loved how he talked to me. Like i was something of HUGE value. Unless we were fighting. When we were fighting, he wasnt him. I wasnt me. We werent nothing. I mean, like most of the time we would get into a disagreement and i would be like "FUCK YOU. DONT TALK TO ME." Or he;d say "FUCK YOU. Thats how it like now." And we wouldnt tazlk for ohhm hmmm, i dont know, 5 hours. And i would txt him and be like "Are you calm now?" And i loved how hed be like "Yeah, i always been." Or i would ask "Are you still mad at me?" And hed be like "For what? (:" LMFAO. Im the type that doesnt mind that we forget about some stupidshit. I can so do that. LOL. And he knew it, and he always just let it go so we could go back to things. Things were pretty perffect when we were good. But one time, we were so bad, that i cried every night. And still to this day, im like WTF. Was it worth my time and happiness ? Cause i doubt he cried. Maybe he said sometimes i miss Lyza. But im pretty sure he wasnt willing to cry for me. Frealss though. Why would he do that to me ? And its funny how one day when i hadnt seen him for the longest, i was like tryna make him stay and telling him i wouldnt talk to him. and he had the nerve to say "You dont want us to not talk. That happened before, and you dont want that to happen again right?" I was like "Wth." I was confused. Howd he know i was like dying those 4 weeks we werent talking ? I mean i did like try and reconcile like 2 times. But like wtf. that aint that desperate cause the 2nd time we were talking again. And its real funny, how like even though i thought he wouldnt remember shit about our latee nightt phoneecallssss, but he was thee onee too bring themm up. And its HELLLUH funnny how thee shit he wass talkingg about, like i didnt remember themm myselff. Tells me things about him. Kinna shows that thiss nigga does care, hes juss real lowkeyy. iono, i'll talk moree aboutt himm anotherr dayy. But yeahhh. Deep insidee, hes still my everythingggg. KINNA, Lol.

12.4.08.3.01PM
HOLA :D Well hmmmm. Uhm, man im so mad :/ I did my nailss and fucking took my time adn everything and put some instant dyer after and like i went to shower and now their like fucked up. UGH. Wasted timed. BUT YEAHHH. Anyways, let me stop being a brat. Hahhaha. Im gonna go get my hair done tommarrow! WHOOO HOO ;D Im gonna go brown. Im thinking a medium shade brown, like hmmm, i little light but not to light cause im fucking dark and that would make me look wayyy darker. And yeahhh, im thinking of temping a part of my hair black after i get it brownn. But like not too much. But like a handful of strands. But yeahhh. MAN. My hair grows really fast. LMAO. Hahha, i knew it grew fast before but like until now i didnt notice how fast. Cause i remember in September i cut my hair like a good 4 inches or 5. and like in a matter of a month it was back to normal then the next two months it had grew like alot. Lmao. it was actually shoulder length. But yeeahhh. :D Im happy its grows fast in this situation, because before i hated it cause like my hairstyle wouldnt last then. So yeah (: OMG ! I am soo proud of myself right now! Like so im saving to get like 200. Just cause. Lmao. But yeahhh, like i really was tempted to waste it alot, and like maybe twice i spent about 20 but yeah :D LOL. hahaha, i like started this goal like 2 weeks ago or something. not too long ago, and im already at 72 buckkss :D and i thought i only had like 45. LMAO. Big difference. It may not seem alot to you guys, but like i used some of it from time to time. LOL. I was really tempted. AND plus i really suck at saving, as you can see. Like i cant save for shit. LOL. I have this weird like thing were i;ll save like 40 and be proud and think about shit i could buy with it, OMG, then i go tell my mom if i can buy some things and like i'll say i'll pay for it myself, then later i'll come home and realize i dont even have enough to pay her back. :/ But yeah. savings not my thing. so thats why im proud (: And guess what! Im gonna get 50 from GMA if i just figure out how to put pictures on her digital frame thingy (: Haha, so thats like uhhh, 122? yeahhhh. and thennn imma try andd get 100 fromm tita bebeng causee yeah :D Lol. but yeah that would put me at 222. and if i keep going i could so get 300 easy peasy (: so yeah. thats my plan and goal :D And maybe if i dont get crazy and go buy something, imma go to 400. and like yeahh :D My goal is 200 by January 30. And if im not crazy and go out and spend it, imma go to Febuary 30. and hope i got like 280. :D So yeah :D WHOO. Immma try soo hardd ! :D

12.5.08.307PM
HAYYY NOOOOOOWWW ! Hahhaa, okay so like im talking to Josh right now. We hung out on uhhh tuesday and hee wass racingg orrr somee shitt and hee fell and like hurt his ankle. and he went home and like it wasnt like tha bad, then like ehs telling me now that he tore his uhh ankle legment? IONO. lol. Hahha, and i was like WTF. WHOOAAA. And like i feel bad for him, cause that shit hurtssss :/ But yeahhh. GUESS WHAT! I got like 80 from joan yesterday so i got 162 dollarss savedd! And likee GMA told me in Janurary thee G1's are gonna be 209! SO LIKE OMG. Im like almostt theree! And like yeaaaa :D Hahahaha . Im prettyy happyy (: And Chanthass tommarroooww :D I miss herrrr. Haha. yeaaaap :D Hopefully i get my hair done today. If mom doesnt like fuck me over. Lol. Hah, pedro said he wanted to see meeee. LALALA. I dont know. I mean i misss him too, but iono. im cluelesss. i really do miss him thoughh :/ LIKE ALOT. Lol. Hah. Hes sooo coooooooool ! Like hess really niceee andd everythinnnnnnnggg. Hah, i was shocked theirs guys like himm arounddd :D Hes pretty damn peferct. LOL. Hahah. like frealsss. hesss gorgoeuss toooooo, so that doesnt hurt (: Hahha, i dont know. i'll talk about that latteerrr. Jus for now, lets say hess fucking awesome :D Hmmm, what elseee.......i dont know. i'll update later (:


12.6.08.4.16PM
Okay, so today i felt pretty shitty. I diodnt feel like going to Chanthas. But i'll go tommarrow. And yeahh. I fucking suck. LMAO. I was sooo suppperr tired for some reason, i felt like i slept like crazy. Hahahaa. Anywhooo. My hair came out differnet then i thought, but i dont really care. I just i dont know. dont feeel like blogging. be back later ? maybe.
9.16PM
PACQUIAOO! Hahahahahaahha, OMG. WEAKKK ASSSS FIGHHTT CUHH! like omg. FREALSSSS?!?!? Dela Hoya wasssssssss thee fuckk wasssssshhh thaaatt?!?!!? OMG, Age does get to you. And like HAYYNOOOOOWWWW PACMAN 60%! Niggggaaaa, ALLLLL PRIDEEE ! Hahaha. I LOVE MEE SOOMMMEE FILIPINOOO BLOOOODDD <3 Im ssooo proudd, cause first offf did you see hiss speeeddd? LIKE DAYUMNN! hahaha, OMG. But i felt bad for Dela Hoya, cause he was fuckddup. And like manny wass cleannn, HAHAHA, SO freshhh sooo cleannn cleannnnn :D Hahahaha, i should have bet :/ DAMNN.


12.8.08.5.25PM
STRESSSFULL DAY.
10.53PM
OMG. Im soo scareddd. I dont have a schoool right now :/
I dont know what to do. Like im soo behinnddd. and im afraid of becoming a failure. mannnn. ugh. i dont know. im soo efffinngg cluelesssss. i keep getting the urge to cry, and sometimes i do. but im like so vulnerable right now. and i hate it. i dont know. i bought an ipod touch today. itss prettyy cooool. i dont know. stressing. gonna pray alot tonight and hope for the best.


12.9.089.24PM
Okey dokey :D
Hahaa, i got an ITouch! WHOOO. Lol. Yesterday was shitty, so i bought it for myself :] Haha. Uh, FRISCO FOR XMAS! YEEEEE:D And hmmmm okay soo todayy we went to Micheals and i bought a new foam paint, WHICH I EFFINGG LOVE! LOL. Im addicted!, a make-yourself a snowglobe and personal cup, like i can put pictures in them and whatnot, they were only 1 dollar! OMG. I should have bought like 3millon, LOL. And i bought the paint by number painting things i always get :D This ones a unicorn with rainbows in the bakgorund :] Itsss sooo cuttee! Well yeah. Im not thinking much about anything :D Cause i dont want to. And YEAH :D Lol. My ITouch is fuckingg awesomee! Lol. Haha.

12.10.08.3.31PM
Well. *SIGH* Lifes a fucking trip aint it? Hah, justt showsss howww matierialss thingss wont make you happy, because the real things that matter will always be in the back of your head. Im soo likee fucked right now. I DONT KNOW. for now i guess. imma pray ALOT. Lol. Not that i dont already, Hahaha. Hmmm. Since its on my mind, HOW THE FUCK DID I FUCK UP SO BAD?! Hah, i know how. But it really doesnt matter as much anymore becaause its over with, but then again, i have to look at it and realize my mistakes so i can learn from them. For such a smart girl, i makes alot of dumb mistakes. Thats one thing that hits me, IM SMART, i should have known the results in my actions. But i wasnt even thinking. I was soo miserable that, i let that misery take over me and it made me become IRRESPONSIBLE, and i got that i dont give a fuck attitude. Bceause honestly, I DIDDNT GIVE A FUCK. I didnt care if i went to school or not. And too make matters worse, i didnt know how high school was so i thought it was like middle school, in middle school i went to school and i missed alot of school and didnt do alot of homework, but i still maintianed my good grades (Though i dont know how). Its crazy, HIGH SCHOOL is a total different world. Miss one day, YOUR FUCKSD. And i missed like how much? I have no idea how much, But it was just one day. it was just 2 days. 3. 4. 5. 6. No it wasnt. UGH. FUCKD UP LIFE.