feb.25

LB thiss weeeekendd :] hellluh up. Hah. Fkc cuh. Juss ohh soo happpy withh him :D imma do him goood, cause he does me good . Freaaaallsssss. I cannt believvee I never saww howw muchh he's soo goood to me. Hah. I did, buh not reallly. Helluh naive. I love that nigga like I love my momma. Cause he literally gives me a life, I aint exxagerating tha truth, I wake up each day, happy to have him in my life. My will and everything <3

happppyy ass a muhhhkckkaaa :]

He makes me happier than you ever did. He makes me feeel out of this world. With you, I wasn't happy. And even if im not with him, he makes me happier than you ever did put togetherr. He knows me, and I know him. Jus thinkn about him makes me feel better :] damn, I had to get thru you to see that im better off with him :D I kind of hate you. And I kind of dnt. Cause you were an asshole to me. You said you'd be different. LIE. But then again you did give me him back :] you lied so much. And I hate how you make me feel. I deserve better, you deserve someone that can put up with you. Im not the one, never really was. Im sorry. Im sorry I couldn't be your ride or die. Even after everything, I tried to stay true and be your friend. That didn't work. You have so many problems. Im not ready to put up with it. My bad for being young. You grew up too fast for me. I care for you and your well being. But I could never in my life say I was in love with you. And you know that. Cause deep down inside, you yourself knew, I was in love with him. And no one can stop that. Im sorry. I hope you get somewhere in life. And you get better. And I dearly honestly hope you find the girl I could never be for you.

&babyimsrry.

Wooo. Lets start it agin yee ? Its beeen hard, helluh still is, buh imma try my best. And make this worth it. I didn't do all that sht for everything too be gonne, ghostt, SIKKKEEEE. We gonn work this thru bbby. Fkc, I know peopless gonna bitch, buh fkcthat. I can deal. I guess. Everyone at home knows, oh weell my decision, and if it is, my mistake. Im not sayn its a mistake, buh I can take it. I love tht nuggggaaa, ahahah. Hard to believe buh I dooo. Hiss buttfacee asss. Lol. Dammmn, we broke up twice in the past weeeeek and something days >.< itsss kayss tho. Imma do it good this time, im hoping. Buhh yeeee. O23TEEN20H9

ohwow.

Last night was fkcn rough. It wasn't what I wanted to happen. I regret it. And I dnt fkcn want to feel like this again. Buh I prolly will again. I dntt think it'll fkcn happen again. Iono. Its hard. Fkc. Mang. I nneeeed him, but why ? I never felt like this . Like why's he so fkcn different ? Can someone tell me ? Why the fkcs he so fkcn special ?! Danng. Im not fkcn ready for everything, but the fkcs happening to me ? Freals. Cause I can't get this sht off my mind. And I dnt want to let go. Im tired of crying, but I need him. I can't help these tears . I wanna get back with him, but im hesitant. Very. I dnt want to look stupid.

falalalalal lallaala.

Ugh. Im like fkcn confused. I jus wanna keep to him, buh the fkc am I to do bout these things happeneing ? I can't handfle it. Like fkc. I wanna stay true, so why wnt these things jus go ?! Why they gotta be so fkcn like out theeree, can't help it. I can't. Like fkc, why do I do too much ?! The hells wrong with me ? Mmmmm. I dnt wana fkc a good thing, so why am I ?







Sooo. Imm in french. Fkcn hate this fkcn classs. And yeeee. Fkc. I was soo mad duringg 5th period. I am not feeeeln anything righh now ! I fkcn hate how this shts like takn over me. Damn. I dnt need this sht righ now. I neeeda get my sht strait, get it done, then mayb I can do what I want. Fkc. Nuggggass. I want him, then I want him, buh then I need him ! Ughh. Can't balance this sht out. I dnt know, if I can keep it true with him, then like damn, im feeln that nigga a lot! And then that nigga got me hellluh thinkn. Fuckk righhh ? I know ! I neeeda juss stop I think. Mang. I hope if I do even like do what I been thinkn, that it doesn't back fire, and im left with nothing.

rawwwwwwwwwwwwr

Uggggggh ! The fkc am I doing ?

feb.16.09

Lyza. You fucked up. Can't stop thinkn bout it. You fkcd up a good thing. Why can't you shut your mouth sometimes ? Someone answer me that.

feb.16.09

Lyza. You fucked up. Can't stop thinkn bout it. You fkcd up a good thing. Why can't you shut your mouth sometimes ? Someone answer me that.